Why Me?

Do you ever doubt or question God? Do you ever wonder why He won’t answer us on our timetable? Don’t distress. It’s human nature to sometimes not fully understand the invisible. In those times you should “be still and know that He is God”.

“WHY ME”! He couldn’t help but think this loudly in his head. He never really said it but as things mounted he inwardly shouted louder still. “I’ve never really asked for too much. Could you please help me out here? I’m begging God! I’ve been praying about this for so long. I’m trying to be patient, but I’m really struggling here. Are You still there? Should I just give up on this prayer thing?” As the confusion and even anger stewed more and more in his heart, he began thinking of all the murders, prostitutes, drug dealers, sexually immoral, rebellious, violent, and even so called “part-time” Christians, that better suited such distress. He’d spent much of his life serving the One he called to and did not understand where the grace was at the moment.

Suddenly, his eyes were opened to what God’s eyes saw. He broke down in tears, sobbing uncontrollably as the truth became clear. He’d been a murderer by putting Jesus on the cross with his own sin. Even if only in his mind, he’d been immoral, rebellious, violent, etc. He realized he was no better of a candidate for God’s grace than anyone. Everyone is a candidate, no matter what the situation.

Then Psalm 107: 27-28 came to his heart:

“…..they were at their wits’ end. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he brought them out of their distress”.

Then God delivered as he always does. A soft whisper, like that of a summer breeze, assured him of his place in God’s perfect plan. God said to him, “I know you are hurting child, but I’m hurting with you and crying every tear with you. Your faith is strong. This task could not be carried out by a young believer. They might be weakened by the pressure, but for you, this has made your faith even stronger, bringing more Glory to my name. The enemy is but a footstool under your feet.”

Then God revealed how the number in His kingdom grew as a result of the testimony of this man’s pain, and what God did through it. The numbers were staggering. One person heard the man’s testimony and was touched. That person told ten other people. Those ten told another ten. Those ten told another ten. At the end of the revelation, the numbers were in the thousands, just because one man had to suffer for a short while.

The man begged the Lord’s forgiveness for ever doubting or questioning His way. He’d started his thought with “Why me”? He ended with “Why You”?